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29 Dec 97
 that's a paddington hat -xexactly! exactly! -s
 levi's little boy smile
 
 NICU
 i'm peering through your opacity
 
 rehearse tomorrow's verse
 forgive me if i don't singe in reverse
 [sic, s/b key]
 
 calypso
 jam chunk
 
 Crossroads
 (cool, a Zero cover, just kidding)
 
 Esau myth essential blow against patriarchy
 Me as second born but first born *son*, usurping older sister's place.
 write jennifer's story
 wizard versus warrior, gandalf
 
 write novel *by* posting to usenet
 
 Jerry garcia was the greatest master ever of slack-stomach guitar.
 Kimock is the best tight-stomach guitarist I know (better than... <--bogus concept) compare Henry K.
 
 cars truck buses
 
 yoga
 briggs of course already there
 younger brother
 let me get there
 [on my own]
 
 falsetto last studio
 [even though i have the album, i heard and wrote]
 deep in the bottom
 [when prompted, actually "theme from the bottom"]
 heard as though new
 them fotm thang fo a minute
 
 s hears women are smarter
 
 bottom feeding
 as a concept (in porn too)
 
 never be sorry about that
 you made the right decision
 
 ok he wears his pretensions on his sleeve
 
 i really listened this time
 b is teaching me conversation
 
 this *is* what happens in the dead universe
 
 wiped she
 her tears
 with my hand
 
 dad, i ain't your wind up toy
 
 we're all learning
 
 boast rap
 
 sarah is so cool
 i love her so much
 no actual reason
 to hide it/anything?
 
 this guy in a room at the back of a company they give drugs/computers to to be the brains or imagination or (pro)creative power of the thang.
 
 give dad enterzone and my other links, new version of eudora
 links going in
 
 STATE of web integration real not ad marketing bullshit
 
 massive from the bottom
 
 Fluffhead
 
 did Fluf-fy(!)--
 3 crescendos that made zeezee-wisey-ex look around
 
 at the moment two of the men in her life are hanging out at madison square garden
 
 to two too
 force the issue ebonically
 
 syrup at phish w/ xian whoda thunkit?
 
 Dirt
 (knockin' like opening)
 
 now you can draw the back of trey
 
 Antelope
 
 nic addict (recovered: no, moderated)
 Martha feels our scorn
 don't *kill* nicotine executive! laugh at them, even though some of them are the nazi war criminals of today-->better in a cage-->invite people in
 
 i take the fifth
 
 me: i guess i just copped a feel or something but i didn't mean to.
 girl bumming me cigarette: oh, that's ok.
 
 nice long intro to antelope
 
 we're in the same level
 
 water
 it does a body good
 
 can't
 
 write down she said brown fuzzy mittens
 the scribe takes liberties
 
 brachiate! climb
 
 climb
 it's weird when my legs call me a motherfucker specifically.
 
 dad: put icons on desktop
 mail from mom
 xian's 'zine <--enough for now
 do anyway
 o'brian: "the door was on the jar"
 he need a good (not really)
 
 i need to sleep
 why won't you let me
 
 bathroom->
 digestion->
 food->
 pleasure->
 self-control
 
 or nicotine
 (or is it oral?)
 one cigarette a day, patch
 maybe smoke less pot
 
 during a tight stomach guitar solo, if you dance with your stomach muscles loose, you geel tension there, to me it feels like anxiety.
 
 san diego
 "it's just a place"
 this has been a message from the tourist bureau of seattle\\
 
 who changed the r to or from rh to trrrrill?
 who is that man, i would like to shake his hand
 
 reproducing it is hard
 
 brachiate
 i/take the fifth
 
 Down with Disease->
 jam->
 David Bowie
 
 just thinking re him an iman per ABIHDrown)
 
 how to draw trey from behind
(in three easy steps):
 
 [scans added 98 02 12]
 
   be careful not to accidentally draw darth vader
 loooook i am yohtt fathah
 
 
   
 paige jam
 re----? ?? of poss?? -- is that standard?
 
 -> chalk dust torture
 ->tease? d predicted it
 
 possum!
 the look of astonishment on zzyzx's face was worth the price of admission
 
 got to have some funk
 definitely fonkay w/arthur'so (so?) african Wheee's
 
 is this my next lifetime?
 
 foxy lady (jam)
 
 great dictation
 --s
 
 stories my family told me since we all forget who "we" are
 
 miss the dead?
 it's good to miss what's gone
 
 when sarah
 to write
 played up
 the Notebook
 where ideas are made
 me: the ideas just happen
 all you do is write them down
 
 oh my god
 we forgot to fuck
 
 You Enjoy Myself (my first second [actually not, that would be Dirt])
 
 like donald duck cursing at the end of YEM ah shee h'danmg like
 
 enco'
 this is new yawk
 you betta fuckin' play an encoah.
 
 when i whispered in her ear
 i lost another friend
 
 very faithful
 rocked out
 good times, bad times
 
 [drawing of my knock-kneed legs:
 
 
  
 lends woman's
 body shape
 to my silhouette
 with littlest
 belly yet
 same effect
 mirror?
 
 
 not raining hard anymore but the ombrella salesmen is out
 
 mirror image (scan)
 
 
  
 myth of alcohol as writer's drug
 it's the pot
 stoopid
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